||[Jan. 11th, 2011|03:17 am]
Wisdom through different eyes
Okay, I am in no way new to totem animals, I've had several in my life. From having Wolf as a Companion/Guardian totem as a child before I knew just what it was, to Bear when I needed some courage, and finally Vulture when I needed to do some life cleaning. |
But lately I am at a loss. I need the guidance of a totem/Spirit Guide, but neither Vulture nor Bear, who were with me at the same time for a while, seem to be near me any more. Their time in my life may be over. I am open to a new totem, I have opened my mind and heart, I have meditated, and tried to call dreams... But I simply haven't had any breakthrough! Lately, I've had only one instance that may be of some importance:
One night, late, I was driving home. Suddenly a white dog sprinted across the road! It had run up an alley before I got to where it had been. That wasn't so strange, except a mile or so up the road, an owl flew low across the road, right where I could see it!! They both seemed to be in a hurry, and were headed in the same direction, very pointedly. Do you perhaps have any translations or possible meanings for me? I can't make heads or tails of it!
[also maybe of note, that same morning my friend texted me a picture of an owl who had become disoriented in her yard after being spooked from her roost]
Also do you have any tips for me, for drawing my new totem/guide?
Since the phase of your life where Vulture and Bear has passed, I would say to not worry about finding your current animal right now. :) Whoever is watching over you at this point may feel like their overt presence is not needed, and they are content to keep watch from the shadows. So my advise to is live your life, and when you need help or guidance, they will be there before you know it. :)
Edited at 2011-01-11 08:51 am (UTC)
The thing is, I definitely feel like I need some guidance, and that I am not getting it. I feel exactly the way I did before Vulture found me, and when Vulture eventually DID find me, He communicated that I had somehow been hidden from him, and he had been searching for a long time. He was not pleased, and I knew it was my fault. I feel like SOMETHING is trying to reach me, but can't, and I don't know how to reach it!
Is it possible that you are simply trying too hard?
Have you tried actually talking to Dog or Owl to see if there was any significance other than coincidence here?
I have tried to contact them, or anything else trying to reach me, but there just seems to be something blocking my way. It could be that subconciously I am doing it myself, but I am beginning to feel quite desperate and lost and I don't think I am. I will try meditating and starting up my dream diary again tonight, though.
A white animal will often mean dream plane communication, I would start the dream journal like you said, and then call upon dog or owl to guide you on the dream plane.
Sometimes a totem will be overlooked if we don't "want" that particular totem also, so pay attention to the little animals around you too, like insects who might be trying to connect with you.
Also, I would suggest that being in a state of desperation may cloud your ability to connect as well - what we focus on is where our power goes and what we manifest so if you are constantly focusing on your inability connect to your totem, then you will continue to experience that. Relax, visualise connecting with the totem, and see what comes - but you do need to release that feeling of desperation.
You might want to start out tomorrow, and first thing in the morning when you wake up, call in your Higher Self and ask that any guides that you are supposed to have show up four times in your day, with the repetition being just so that you can be sure they are your totem.
Then watch and listen to EVERYTHING during the day (TV, signs, songs on the radio, magazine ads, billboards, listen to conversation, etc.) to see what shows up. Good luck!
If you are really stuck I do paid journeys to find totem/transitory power animals for other people through my blog, www.conduitofjoy.com.
It definitely sounds to me as though Dog and Owl may be communicating messages to you, especially since both of the incidences you mention are "unusual." Here is just a little info on each of these animals in general. I would also suggest that if you can identify the specific species of Owl and breed of Dog, research those and see if any of their characteristics strikes a chord with you.
Owl's Wisdom Includes:
* Silent and swift movement
* Seeing behind masks
* Keen sight
* Messenger of secrets and omens
* Link between the dark, unseen world and the world of light
* Comfort with shadow self
* Moon magick
Dog's Wisdom Includes:
* Heals emotional wounds in humans
* Understanding of the duality of doubt and faith
* Unquestioned loyalty
* Knowledge of all things sensual
* Ability to smell trouble from a distance
Hope this helps.