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Greetings/Affinity [Dec. 5th, 2010|10:20 am]
Wisdom through different eyes

Hello, I am planetsalign.

I am nearly completely new to this Totem in the modern sense and practice of the topic.

I do know of and understand the older more classical Native American veiw and practice of totem.

Seemingly, my animal or totemic affinity is with the crow, I don't know why or how, or even what it means or what they are saying, showing, teaching etc... Any help with this would also be appreciated as I also study and research the great information this community has made apparent to me.
Thank you All!

Like yesterday for example, it was not one or a small group of crows, but a rather large, numbering in the thousands group of crows which kept following and watching me, like they had something important to say to me. This was defintely not the first time this has happened. It is even more scary since I am becoming closer and closer to dying.
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(no subject) [Mar. 26th, 2010|11:15 pm]
Wisdom through different eyes

I'm curious if anyone has any insight on one's guide appearing as a doll? In about two dreams I've had, they were there, but me holding them as a plush animal doll. In the first I'm specifically picking one out from a selection of dolls, and the second I already have one in my arms.

I'd also like to know if anyone experiences disagreements with their guide? I'm told that I just have let things go and let the future take care of itself, but I want to be involved and know exactly where it's heading. Or is it their point that we have to agree with them eventually, because that's what we need to learn?
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(no subject) [Jan. 31st, 2010|11:51 am]
Wisdom through different eyes

I don't recall if I've ever posted here before or not so I'll quickly introduce myself and then explain why I'm posting.

I'm Fenryn, I'm a Pagan with interests in Shamanism and Celtic Paganism. I discovered my main totem when I was 12 years old, Hawk has been with me since that time and is very strong in my life.

I have been dreaming a lot about ravens and rats. The ravens don't show up as a main part of any particular dream but they show up before I'm going to wake up and they're always conversing. There's only two of them and I can never pick up on what they're saying but I know they're talking in English.

The rats are usually the focal point of my dreams. They talk to me in my dreams but again, I can never pick up on what they're saying. It's very muffled but I know they're speaking English to me. The rats always follow me, the number of rats that come into my dreams vary. I feel that maybe I should also point out that I've owned rats before and became extremely attached to them. They lived a long life and very happy life before passing on. I don't know if this is relevant or not but I thought I'd state it anyway.

I just wanted to post this here to get thoughts on these encounters. For both the ravens and the rats there have been multiple dreams so I'm extremely curious.
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New comer, and first post. [Jan. 5th, 2010|01:48 am]
Wisdom through different eyes

Hello everyone! My good friend, darkalessa told me of this place. I never knew it even existed... I guess I'll get on with the point.

I studied Shamanism for some time. I started when I was 17, after finding out I had Sioux blood in me. I wanted to know more. I wanted to see different beliefs. I'm not sure where I stand right now, and I have some guidance; but no thick pillar of someone who understands Shamanism more. So I'm very happy to find this community!

I found out my Guardian animal was a dragon. Does anyone know anything of it?

The first time I saw him, he was a dragon's skeleton. In a graveyard... Surrounded by dead people and animals alike. The graveyard had a swamp-like feeling to it, and it had green mist. I'm not sure what that stood for, but now my dragon is very lively. I saw him in full flesh for the first time last month. Would this mean I don't feel "dead" anymore? I was going through some tough times. I'm 21 now. And things seem to be looking up, even though I have a disease known as Systemic Lupus. (( Can be fatal, but I only get in pain a lot. It rarely attacks my body to the point where I need to go to the Emergency Room / Hospital. ))

Any advice or discussion would be appreciated! Thanks.
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*wave* [Dec. 4th, 2009|06:43 pm]
Wisdom through different eyes

(I hope this is alright to post--I didn't see anything mentioned of it in the userinfo)

I'm a lurker on most communities on LJ, as I'm usually busy offline. However, animism is a major part of my practice, which includes archetypal and totemic energies of animals, as well as other elements in nature. I write about it in my blog Dimension Bomb (which is in need of updating).

Part of that involves working with objects scavenged from nature, as well as old antiques and related things. I keep up a little shop, The Relic Hound, which features some of the objects I've made for sale. I have quite a lot of specifically animistic and totemic objects I've made, such as little totem bottle, and quite larger ones, as well as a variety of other items.

Portion of proceeds from the sale of all these items go to wildlife rescue, namely The International Wolf Center, The Indiana Coyote Rescue Center, and related groups. Lately, a large amount of income I've been getting from my shop that hasn't already gone intononprofits has gone into mailings to troops overseas.

Anyway, feel free to check me out if you're looking for something for the holidays--it all goes to a good cause.

Thanks for looking.
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Secondary totems [Nov. 3rd, 2009|05:29 pm]
Wisdom through different eyes

So how do you know if a totem is secondary vs. being primary or tertiary? Is it a time-length thing, a certain "feel" of energy, or something else?

I know WHAT a secondary totem is btw, I just would like to know how you figured out which totem filled that slot.
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Dragon Flys and Falling Leaves [Nov. 2nd, 2009|02:13 pm]
Wisdom through different eyes

Something happened the other day that was a bit out of the ordinary and I was wondering what those of you here might think.

We were getting into our car (our very cold car as our windows no longer roll up and down and we live in Ky.) and I saw a tiny blur of green fluttering in the corner of our wind shield on the inside. I was startled to realize that it was a dragonfly. (Startled because should they really be out in the cold like that?) I reached my hand out for it (never thinking I would actually catch it as I am neither the most graceful nor quickest creature.) but I caught it easily and when I opened my palm it sat in my hand completely unharmed - almost like it jumped there... and it sat there for several minutes while I stared and my wife gawked... then I told it we needed to go now and it was in that moment that it chose to leave, not a moment sooner or longer then the moment when I spoke to tell it it was time to part ways.

Less then fifteen minutes later we pulled into the local gas station to gas up the car on the way to Louisville and I stepped around the front to go in. There laying on the ground in front of the car was a perfect five pointed leaf. I don't remember the name of the tree that comes off of, and frankly that time p of leaf is not rare around here, but what was odd was that it had been pressed not just into the five points - but into a perfect five pointed star shape from my vantage point when I stepped out of the car. (The wife had to step around beside me to see it - she couldn't see it from her original vantage point.)

Either thing alone would have been cool and somewhat thrilling - but the two together in such a short time period makes me wonder...
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Opinions [Oct. 30th, 2009|03:34 pm]
Wisdom through different eyes

So, this would have to be my second dream with Panther.
I'm at a loss for what it symbolizes, so any interpretations would be helpful.

I'm the back seat of the car and we're driving through a street, and it's normal and sunny out. I look out the window and see a full-sized Panther on the sidewalk. I get curious, so I stick my head out a little for a good look, to think I'm not imagining things. Five minutes later, there's a Panther cub on the roof of the car. It's desperately trying to get in through my partially opened window, but I get nervous and close it, thinking it's going to do something bad to me, or I was just shy, I'm not sure. It was probably just curious. What I noticed is that it had very distinct spots on one side of it's face and a little of the body, and the rest was just pure black. Next thing I know I'm in abandoned house, and it looks familiar. It's half destroyed, and I look around, wondering if it's going to come inside and get me.

Are dreams as accurate as meditations? I seem to come more in contact when in dreams. I feel like that when I meditate I feel like I'm controlling some part of it, because my mind races a lot, and in dreams I'm not forcing anything.
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Crow(s). [Oct. 29th, 2009|12:50 pm]
Wisdom through different eyes
Please forgive me if this entry becomes a rambling mess because I'm altogether unsure as to how to ask the questions I have. Like a few others I've spied before me I really know nothing of this brand of spiritualism, but I would very much like to learn more about it and what it could mean to and for me. I come from a region where the winters are especially frigid and, because I feel as though the cold has truly become a part of me over the years, I have a habit of taking long walks in even the unkindest temperatures. At a lull in the winter of 2008, I happened upon a mass of black feathers in the snow and, upon further inspection, I realized that it was a dead crow that had been completely lacerated and torn apart by what I can only assume was the harshness of the fading season. This scene struck me so (particularly because I would, weeks later, study a Baudelaire poem about the beauty of a carcass) that I photographed it and have never been able to forget it. As Baudelaire suggests, my fascination was borne more of admiration than horror, for the sheer rawness and honesty of the image. Thereafter, I began to notice crows everywhere around me -- solitary crows hobbling across roads, crying out from high above as I traversed my school's campus, flocks hovering above the oak trees of my home, etc. At first, I attributed this merely to a heightened awareness to the presence of the birds as opposed to an increased number of them, but now I'm not so sure. My studies have since brought me to a different continent where the winter months are not nearly as biting, but the corvids continue to pervade my consciousness, namely in the form of a hooded crow that flies across my path nearly every time I visit the the grand touristic cemeteries in my city and one faceless entity that caws outside my window every then and again. I've done some light reading on the symbolism behind single crows and groups of crows, but unfortunately, knowing a definition doesn't always guarantee an understanding. I suppose I joined this community and am posting here today with the hopes that others better-versed in this world might shed some light on or even identify the nature of my experiences, because if indeed I have some sort of spiritual connection to this animal, I want to know how to embrace and use it to its best advantage. One thing I do know for sure thanks to my reading is that such connections are always very personal, very ingrained in the events of one's life. That being said, if there are any questions about myself that I can answer so that you might answer mine, please don't hesitate to ask them.

Thanks heartily for taking the time to read this monster of an introduction.
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Hello again... [Sep. 21st, 2009|06:16 pm]
Wisdom through different eyes

[Current Mood |lost]

It has been over a year since I have posted, or even read anything on LJ. I am truly sorry for neglecting you all.

The reason for this post is because I have lost a part of me. I used to be so close with Cougar and Wolf, among others.  Now I fear I have lost them. I know that I can never lose Cougar; she was with me at birth, or rather part of me, and she promised to be with me until the end, even if I do not feel her there, but that is little comfort to me at the moment.

I went through a lot of changes in the last year. I moved out of my parents house for college and I am fully supporting myself with only the help of financial aid. Everything changed so fast and I didn't incorporate my relationships with my guides into my new lifestyle. Now I don't even know where to start. I can't feel them. I can't hear them. I used to dream so beautifully with them; I learned the best lessons through dream. But now my sleep is uninterrupted. It is quiet. I fear that in losing them, I killed a part of me that I may never get back. I should have nurtured them, brought them with me in everything that I did. I could not have imagined how hard it would hit me when I realized that they were no longer there because it was a gradual fading away...

I guess all that I could possibly ask all of you for is is your opinions and your suggestions. If I try hard enough, long enough, will I ever have that part of me back?

How could I have done this to myself...

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